Tuesday, August 21, 2007


Like Catherine Zeta Jones quoted in some recent article, "too often we're nicer to strangers than to those we love..." (somewhere along those lines)...

It sends shivers up and down my spine when I think of how short and rude I can be to my brothers when I'm in the grumps and tired...

Or when I moan aloud when I'm not happy about something - it's an indirect and sometimes manipulative way of expression... Never noticed what a negative bitch I could be...

Too often I am like this to my loved ones and yeah, definately nicer to strangers or others I'm not close to... I'm guilt-ridden because there's no one more important and dear to my heart than my family and best friends.

SORRY for all the negativity and I will try my best to be nice and kind from today onwards...

Touching on girl on girl niceness, I was reading another article in the latest Myer mag (Emporium) describing the classic girlfriend-treatment and the effect of change (getting married, having kids, higher paying job, hardship, and poor choices in men etc) in female friendships. Female friendship was described as, "a water-tight pre-nup agreement...with girlfriends, much is intuitive and left unsaid. This can lead to misunderstandings and resentment later, and make us vulnerable to intimidation: who hasn't cowered under the dreaded 'girlfriend-treatment'"?

After that dose of wisdom I was left in awe. Some friendships never fade because the mutual understanding whether unspoken or not stays in balance and the positive energy and feelings of love and gratitude remains just about 99% of the time... and then there are other friendships that constantly feel like you're riding a rollercoaster, full of it's highs and lows as they're so easily shaken and affected by the pressures of life and just the difficulty of being able to be honest and open with one another. Too often, we're too scared to be truly honest because some friends can't differentiate good advice from judgment and their own pride to prove they are still the same when circumstances have changed them or they have in fact grown apart without even knowing...

Girls say we're supportive of each other but there's always that streak of competition and the need to not be the worst off, or the odd one out - unlike guys who don't care where they're at which is what makes their bond with other guys stronger because they don't waste their energy judging and comparing (except perhaps the sizes of their dicks ;P) and expecting this and that from each other.

Gosh, us girls can be bitches can't we?? Or maybe it's just me... again...

Life is cruel...