Friday, October 28, 2005
All along I thought he was the one hurting me. Just now after having a brief conversation with him, I realised that he is really lost. He has lost his confidence in uni, in himself. I can't say I am better than him because I'm not. In fact I feel like we're exactly the same. Yet, I still encourage him because I feel like I really wanted to help him. I don't want to see him fade away. I don't want him to feel that he has nothing to look forward to in life. Even if I'm not a part of it, I want him to be happy.
I can't change my desktop picture of "us"
I can't delete the pictures of "us" off Friendster
I can't fully delete his number off my mobile (I know his number off by heart anyways and the other number, well it's still on my last called list because I would delete any new numbers who call me so I can keep that last time and date he called me...that being 24/09/2005 12:06pm... I can't bear to lost that memory - the time before we had these troubles)
I can't delete the messages he sent me (and what I had sent him for that matter) & pictures & videos we took together on my mobile
I wear his old clothes to sleep (I'm a freak, truly I am a love sick freak)
I can't eat any dish of Peking Duck, roast meats because nothing can beat the taste of his restaurants
I can sit there and watch him squirm and look at me funny (despite the fact that it crushes me) when I try to ask him if he still loves me or not
I want to compete with him - when I want to go out as much as I can and I secretly hope to see him there - to rub it in his face that I am having fun without him... but then feel like shit that he is out there having fun without me and that we are not together anymore... or when I changed my status to "It's Complicated" just to show him that I feel the same way as him, even though I was totally crushed when he first changed it and I said that I wouldn't stoop as low as him... but do it anyway, hoping that it will make me feel better... (no, it doesn't though)
I still refer to him as my bf when talking to other people and go on about how great he is or what we used to do together.. "Oh yeah, me and bf would do that tooo!!!"
I can't tell my parents that we are going through a rough patch and I have tp pretend that we're just "too busy" with uni work to hang out together
I want to fark myself up so that he would pay attention to me, so that he would return to my side and love me like he once did
I missed him Wednesday night. Been thinking about him a bit. It's kinda annoying because I feel like I am thinking of "us" but right now, we're nothing. I messaged him as I went to sleep. I didn't really expect him to reply. But when I woke up to NOTHING, that really hurt me. He is getting worse and worse. All that shit with S.M as well. Pisses me off. I mean I shouldn't jump to conclusions when I don't know the whole story. I feel like saying bad things about her, but I am better than that. Afterall, this is between the two of us and noone else. He always says he has "control", so I will continue to think that he knows what he is farking doing. Do I still love him? Does he love me? Obviously not. I feel like anger is overpowering my feelings for him. And the more I feel that I hate him for doing this to me, the easier it is for me to walk away. I don't know if that is truly what I want to do. But right now, it just feels like the right thing to do, by me. The smartest move I could make now, is to walk away from him, from this dead end relationship. There is no point in denying, Eve. You know the truth in your heart. Can't you sense he doesn't care for you anymore. If he did care for you, he wouldn't treat you like this. You are not shit, you are not scum. He should love you unconditionally, without any hesitation. This hesitation is a sign that he does not appreciate you, he does not love you. He is the one losing out. He is letting YOU go. You don't have to be afraid. Tomorrow will be a better day. Life will go on. You don't have to worry about that.
Why wait for someone who does not have you in their heart?
Wednesday night...
I was itching to go out agains, so had planned to go to Leedy Hotel... but after a few setbacks (Marge had to do her assignment.. Christine has work early..) ended up going to Cold Rock (for icecream!!) => Hit Studio (blehh, getting sick of it heyz) => Vickory House, Curtin (to pick up John) => Carnegies (pretty dead by 1230ish!!). All in all, it was pretty fun with Sabs, Malcom, Snoopy (!!!! ahuahuauha) & latecomer, John! Just that it felt really rushed and I didn't get to do my dance off (which was why I had wanted to go out in the first place!! I was feeling DAMNNNN BOOPYYY!!)! Nvmz, good experience anyways!!
*Highlights:
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
*sob* Miss all my girls out there! But I know everyone is busy with work and uni so I guess we'll all have to catch up a little later down the track... damnnnnn I see Adzzie's nick and she was like "2 reports to do....1 down 1 to go.... TIME FOR INTENSE STUDYING!!!" so she is obviously not free! Christine has work every morning at 9 so she's not really free as well. BUT THAT'S ALL OKAY, WE CAN ALWAYS GET TOGETHER AFTER EXAMS AT SUBCULTURE!!
*OOooo that's right, Sophia! They are still selling tickets to Subculture at the Curtin sports store. You & Dom still interested? It's $59! hehe :p
The Veronicas - 4Ever
Here we are so what you gonna do Do I gotta spell it out for you I can see that you got other plans for tonight But I don’t really care
Size me up you know I beat the best Tick tock no time to rest Let them say what their gonna say But tonight I just don’t really care
Come on baby we aint gonna live forever Let me show you all the things that we could do You know I wanna be together And I wanna spend the night with you With you Come with me tonight We could make the night last forever
Ive seen it all I’ve got nothing to prove Come on baby just make your move Follow me lets leave it all behind tonight Like we just don’t care
Let me take you on the ride of your life That’s what I said alright They can say what they wanna say cuz tonight I just don’t even care
Come on baby we aint gonna live forever Let me show you all the things that we could do You know I wanna be together And I wanna spend the night with you With you Come with me tonight We could make the night last forever
Lets pretend your mine We could just pretend, we could just pretend, yeah yeah You got what I like You got what I like, I got what you like Oh come on Just one taste and you’ll want more
So tell me what your waiting for
Come on baby we aint gonna live forever Let me show you all the things that we could do You know I wanna be together And I wanna spend the night with you With you
Come with me tonight We could make the night last forever Come on baby we aint gonna live forever Let me show you all the things that we could do You know I wanna be together And I wanna spend the night with you With you Come with me tonight We could make the night last forever
I had this dream the other morning bout those silverfish thingys and they were crawling around in my bed and all over the floor! (Grossssss) And in my dream I grabbed the lil hand-held vac to get rid of them!! It was really weird and I felt a tad freaked out when I woke up!
So here’s what Rose Inserra of my Dictionary of Dreams said:
“Generally speaking, the insects in our dreams stand for the things that ‘bug’ us in our waking lives. Like insects themselves, these things may be small, but they can also be annoying and when there are large numbers of them, threatening or scary. You probably have your own personal list of insects you avoid. However, over the centuries most common insects have also accumulated broad cultural associations and these may be reflected in your dreams…” There wasn’t anything about “silverfish” so I guess I just have to classify it, under insects.
So what things have been “bugging” me?
- My relationship or lack of…
- Uni deadlines and exams
- Trying to find myself
- What I am gonna do bout Burswood and,
- Trying to balance an “interesting life” and “good grades in uni”
What a day today turned out to be!!!
Let's start with my Chinese presentation - shit... short... sad!
Then I rushed over to my Strat Mgmt poster presentation - excellent! Many interesting designs... + 1 x French Hottie!! Okay so I must elaborate on this new "croissant" or "escargot" fascination I suddenly developed today!!! (ok, "croissant sounds way better!) Well, let's just say my Kookie friend of mine introduced me to his "group member"...
Tassii... (erm I can't remember his French name!!). He was so HOT and he shook my hand! keke *drools* :p~~
So anyway, I decided to just leave it be and leave as the lecture was finishing (and we didn't win the poster competition... dammit!) and I was chatting away to Rowena and realised that I left my bag inside the lecture theatre... So I rushed back in and as I came back out I ended up right behind this French hottie!! So of course I indirectly followed him... hauhauha naa not really cos I was heading to meet Kathy at Angazi anyways... So whilst all that was happening I was so excited that I called everyone but noone picked up... and as I reached Angazi I realised he had already gone... so I felt a slight bit of disappointment! BUT the next thing you know, as I finally called through to Marge, I turned around about to scream out my new French discovery to find him sitting on the seats just behind me!!!!!!! hauhuahuauahuahuhauhuaha So farnieeeeeee.. But I'm proud of my new found "taste"! :p
Spent the rest of the afternoon with Kathy... We didn't get our order of beer battered chips because some stupid waitress "forgot" to place our order in!! Dammit, I was sooo hungry as well! Finally met up with Marge and we headed to grab some BBT. Then some how we found ourselves in Hit Studio (!?)... totally unplanned, but I guess we just couldn't resist!! There we bumped into Paul & Sandy (aww sweet couples... I wish I still was in one... *sigh*)... they were with some other friends, and were obviously having an early night since it was around 8 when we saw them!! hehe
We left Hit about 930 and headed down to Varga cos I was up for some free range Salsa!! OOoOoo Lahhlahhhhhh and this Aussie guy approached me and taught me, no he reminded me of some of da movessssssss! hehe His name was James and at first I thought he was one of the instructors!! hauhauau Then when I realised he wasn't I thought it was a tad strange that he kept dancing with me... but yeah it was FUN!!
Finally when I went back to Marge she was with 2 Jap guys and I thought, oOhh they must be tourists trying to crack onto her!!!!! hauhahaau BUT they were more than just ordinary tourists! One of them was the
Features Editor from
Esquire Magazine and the other was his photographer! How coooooooooool was that?! They were in Perth cos they wanted to do an article on it... Not much to say I'd say, but they said they were really happy to meet us! hehe We then ended up chatting till like 1230ish!! They're really inspirational! I wanna look into journalism... or maybe my graphic design again!!! hehe :p
- Highlight: Margaret, Sil Yu San, aka Carol Universe the Model! Or rather MISS UNIVERSE, CAROL!!! HAHAH! That's what the photographer reckons! I think that's a SIGN babes!!!!!
- Me, Wong Yee Mun, aka Beautiful Calm... ahuhauauauhuaua
Marge also reckons that I am too trusting in everyone... Is that true? I guess I do wear a pair of imaginary rose coloured glasses most of the time... Dammit... Gotta start being "street smart" now that I don't have anyone to take care of me no more...
That's how I have been feeling since Jimmy has wanted to endure this break of ours. Right now I feel that it is okay because I don't need anyone to make me happy. I don't need him, especially if he doesn't need me. I can continue living even without him in my life. All I need are my few but extremely wonderful girlfriends. Without them, I think I would truly die!!
So my new formula = No guy, no matter.
= Gfs are my everything!
And that's exactly how it should be! :D
A person who spends too much time on the Internet or the computer in general.
Damnit, he's been on Newgrounds all day. He is such a rasterbator .
Andrew described me as SMITTEN
To be really taken or pleased by someone.
After a few dates with Rob, Sarah was smitten as a kitten.
To be shy and flirtatious at the same time
Girl, you are so smitten!
to check a chick out w/out her knowin that your doin it; to be horney but at the same time calm
lexi made me so horney but i tried hard to be smitten so she wouldn't notice
And summore randoms...
The Mung
Involves to guys and a dead girl. The fisrt guy eats out the dead girl while the second guy runs and does a belly flop onto the dead girl making all her piss and what ever else, come out all over guy #1 ones face.
Gee Sam, that mung last night sure was fun.
Poop Lip
1. The lip of your sphyncter.2. A good name to call someone.
How's your poop lip?Your a big old poop lip.
Ass
(_!_) = Normal Ass(__!__) = Big Ass(!) = Tight Ass(_?_) = Dumb Ass(_E=MC2_) = Smart Ass(_$_) = Rich Ass(_x_) = Kiss My Ass(_X_) = Get Off My Ass
A Place where courageous people do the nasty
1)n. A type of donkey or mule2)n. a slang term to discribe the buttox3)n. A stupid or foolish person
1) I rode my ass up the mountain.2) I'll sake my ass in your face.3) Stop being an ass!
1. Vulgar Slang/Noun. The buttocks or anus.2. Vulgar Slang/Noun. A stupid, mean, or despicable person.3. Vulgar Slang/Adj. Very or quite a bit of.4. Vulgar Slang/Noun. An undesirable place of person.
1. Wow, Michel has a nice hot ass.2. Man, Randy was such an ass today. He forgot to come to school.3. Shit, that was a packed-ass club.3 (2). Whoah, that's a big-ass monster.4. Man, that place was the ass of the neighborhood.
Otta jihdroll
when stuff can get crazy and suddenly gets out of control, mad niggerish things can normally take place around this time
Maiinnn, i went to the mall and i was spendin scrilla airywhere and gotta me dis otfit that was otta jihdroll
And lastly, my fave!!!! [Thx Andrew!!]
Evelyn shizzle
A hott kick-ass girl who goes to a Private school in Pingry. She has so many guys following her, but she doesn't realize it. YOU ROCK CUTIE!That Ev is so hot, I wanna know her
someone who doesnt know anything and who is mentally challenged-wow, i didnt know is was such a stupid evelyn shizzle
the coolest person everyo girl, you think you're cool, but you ain't like evelyn shizzle!!
My hard night... my poor poor hips! :(
3 x B52s + 2 sips of Becks = One Happy Girl!.......
+ 1 x Burbon & Coke + 1 x Vodka Cranberry + 1 x Vodka Redbull = *pUKe*
I can't believe it. Really that wasn't a lot right? I guess I can't drink. I'm a cheap drunk!! Now I've got a hangover!
And what happened last night? OHMIGOSH. I so did not expect THAT to happen. HONEST. He is cute though, but WHATEVER. Whatever happens, happens.
And now all I can think about is how grateful I feel for my girls. I mean come on, how many guys would hold your hair back while you puke? NONE! Marge, my saviour, my angel... I even chucked on the necklace she lent me, and she didn't even say a word (although she was probably thinking, EWW gross, you can keep it now!! :P) She drove me home, asked me if I was alright... was patient and compassionate the whole time. THANKYOU BABES. I LOVE you!!!!
*And all my girls for that matter!
Saturday, October 22, 2005
Phone call from one whom I despise. Message from old colleague. DAMNITTTTTTTTTT! PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE... I have no answers. I don't want to face it. I cannot go back. PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. I will get over this by myself. DON'T MAKE ME RELIVE IT. I will deal with this MY WAY. I want to be able to sleep. THANKYOU.
Friday, October 21, 2005
We were watching Australian Idol and Anne sang this song so beautifully!! I felt touched by the lyrics and her voice was absolutely amazing! Go Anne! hehe SO I thought I'd dedicate this song to Jimmy... :)
Beyonce - Dangerously In LoveI love youBaby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrop
I am the sea
With you and God, who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud
So proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and messed up worldI am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me
And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am
Baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you
sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my sideEvery time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love and to hold
To feel
To breathe
To love youDangerously in love
Can't do this thing
I love you , I love you, I love you
I'll never leave
Just keep on loving me
I'm in love with you
I can not do
I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
Dangerously
I love you
Dangerously in love
Today was a rather productive day. I wrote 659 words! ahuahuauha That's extremely sad considering how much work I really have to do! But I had to cancel shopping with Janet. :( [Sorry love!] I really shouldn't have agreed to it last night, but I guess I really wanted to get out. I am glad I told her I couldn't go this morning though, cos I would've been regretting ALLLLL night if I had!! *phew*
AnyhOooo, Marge was good company cos we did more chatting than anything else! ahuahuauh No, not really, we did end up buckling down and even researched for our little trip away at the end of the year! WoOoo HoOooo HOW EXCITEMENT!!! I can't wait! I was even fast tracking to what sort of bags we would need for "safe travelling" and with that, Marge was like... "Ermm, maybe you shouldn't get so excited yet... I mean we haven't even booked our tickets!" PfTttttT, biatch, I was just excited you know!! Luckily I didn't tell her I was thinking bout all the summer dresses I was gonna include for our tropical getaway... otherwise she'd give me even more shit! keke :P
We're waiting for dinner now... Marge's mum is preparing beef horfun! keke YuMMmMMoOoooo! I can't wait cos I'm extremely hungry and aunty's food is always delish!!
I'm planning to do an all-nighter tonight so I can finish the report and rewrite the second one. I also want to start on my chinese portfolio and speech as well... That will be a lot of work... *sigh* But I guess not long till exams and then it'll allllll be overrrrrrrrrrr! Yay!! All this slaving away will be worth it in the end!
Hmm I wonder if Sophia will call me since she messaged me earlier to ask me if I was doing anything tonight. I guess I wouldn't mind a few hours away, but then again so much work... Better be a good girl and stay home... I DID however, mention that I'd rather do most of my work tonight and then head out for a bit Saturday night! :p After all, it is Nat's birthday tomorrow! hehe Wouldn't miss it for the world!!!!!!
Hrmm I really wanted to have my pics coordinated to the dates they were taken, but I can't be bothered shifting them as there's so many!! I've still got some more of the Moon Cafe and karaoke night, but I think I'll leave them again so that it's not alllllllll pics and nothing else!
Went to Garbo with Will and we walked around aimlessly...chatting! Was pretty alright since we could actually talk! Did everything I needed to do, mainly the resizing of THAT ring and buying cardboard for my presentations next week *eEk* so much work!! I'll just pretend that I am super free for now, cos I don't wanna stress before bed! keke I'm such a lazy shit sometimes...
Afterwards, I gave Janet a call (as I had promised) and then ended up going to her and Nat's place. It was such a lovely town house - modern and homey... Awwww so nice to see one of my high school friends settled and happy in their own little love shack!! :P Oh how I'd to have love her life! (graduated, working cool jobs, loving bf, not to mention a cute and obedient lil puppy!...hehe)
All in all, had a pretty easy night after four nights of hard core work!! I deserved to relax, I deserve it!!
Thursday, October 20, 2005
kekekeeeee!!
ai yahhhh !!!
and agenzzzz....
Look at Mah Posers!
KACHING!! hehe drunk on BBT!
We R sUcH pOsErs!
Crazy nation.....keke
When da 3 of us get together.... I look like an elf there! Scaryy shiettttttt!
Ebelliniii + Crispy Cremeeee
Awww mah 2 sisters!!!
Chinese convenient store lurvers! NOT!! @ Formosa!ahuahuahuuaau
Miss Darth Vader! OoOOo Mai is so hardcore! ahuahua
Everybody but Rraymond... Opps Marge!
I like this pic!!!
mailee + her lemon....chris + her boogies! ahuhauhaua
niceeeeee
Our newly discovered model + our designer... watta perfect match!
Cheesy grins!! Yeah babyyyyy
@ SPACE BAR - Chris + Mailee enjoying their wines!
Me + Mailee
Maggie Mee + Ebelliniiii
Look at the lurvlies!!!
Awwww Miss May + I
PIC OF DA NITE! *Note, Christine's squished face! Mwahahahaha :P
Friday, October 28, 2005
All along I thought he was the one hurting me. Just now after having a brief conversation with him, I realised that he is really lost. He has lost his confidence in uni, in himself. I can't say I am better than him because I'm not. In fact I feel like we're exactly the same. Yet, I still encourage him because I feel like I really wanted to help him. I don't want to see him fade away. I don't want him to feel that he has nothing to look forward to in life. Even if I'm not a part of it, I want him to be happy.
I can't change my desktop picture of "us"
I can't delete the pictures of "us" off Friendster
I can't fully delete his number off my mobile (I know his number off by heart anyways and the other number, well it's still on my last called list because I would delete any new numbers who call me so I can keep that last time and date he called me...that being 24/09/2005 12:06pm... I can't bear to lost that memory - the time before we had these troubles)
I can't delete the messages he sent me (and what I had sent him for that matter) & pictures & videos we took together on my mobile
I wear his old clothes to sleep (I'm a freak, truly I am a love sick freak)
I can't eat any dish of Peking Duck, roast meats because nothing can beat the taste of his restaurants
I can sit there and watch him squirm and look at me funny (despite the fact that it crushes me) when I try to ask him if he still loves me or not
I want to compete with him - when I want to go out as much as I can and I secretly hope to see him there - to rub it in his face that I am having fun without him... but then feel like shit that he is out there having fun without me and that we are not together anymore... or when I changed my status to "It's Complicated" just to show him that I feel the same way as him, even though I was totally crushed when he first changed it and I said that I wouldn't stoop as low as him... but do it anyway, hoping that it will make me feel better... (no, it doesn't though)
I still refer to him as my bf when talking to other people and go on about how great he is or what we used to do together.. "Oh yeah, me and bf would do that tooo!!!"
I can't tell my parents that we are going through a rough patch and I have tp pretend that we're just "too busy" with uni work to hang out together
I want to fark myself up so that he would pay attention to me, so that he would return to my side and love me like he once did
I missed him Wednesday night. Been thinking about him a bit. It's kinda annoying because I feel like I am thinking of "us" but right now, we're nothing. I messaged him as I went to sleep. I didn't really expect him to reply. But when I woke up to NOTHING, that really hurt me. He is getting worse and worse. All that shit with S.M as well. Pisses me off. I mean I shouldn't jump to conclusions when I don't know the whole story. I feel like saying bad things about her, but I am better than that. Afterall, this is between the two of us and noone else. He always says he has "control", so I will continue to think that he knows what he is farking doing. Do I still love him? Does he love me? Obviously not. I feel like anger is overpowering my feelings for him. And the more I feel that I hate him for doing this to me, the easier it is for me to walk away. I don't know if that is truly what I want to do. But right now, it just feels like the right thing to do, by me. The smartest move I could make now, is to walk away from him, from this dead end relationship. There is no point in denying, Eve. You know the truth in your heart. Can't you sense he doesn't care for you anymore. If he did care for you, he wouldn't treat you like this. You are not shit, you are not scum. He should love you unconditionally, without any hesitation. This hesitation is a sign that he does not appreciate you, he does not love you. He is the one losing out. He is letting YOU go. You don't have to be afraid. Tomorrow will be a better day. Life will go on. You don't have to worry about that.
Why wait for someone who does not have you in their heart?
Wednesday night...
I was itching to go out agains, so had planned to go to Leedy Hotel... but after a few setbacks (Marge had to do her assignment.. Christine has work early..) ended up going to Cold Rock (for icecream!!) => Hit Studio (blehh, getting sick of it heyz) => Vickory House, Curtin (to pick up John) => Carnegies (pretty dead by 1230ish!!). All in all, it was pretty fun with Sabs, Malcom, Snoopy (!!!! ahuahuauha) & latecomer, John! Just that it felt really rushed and I didn't get to do my dance off (which was why I had wanted to go out in the first place!! I was feeling DAMNNNN BOOPYYY!!)! Nvmz, good experience anyways!!
*Highlights:
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
*sob* Miss all my girls out there! But I know everyone is busy with work and uni so I guess we'll all have to catch up a little later down the track... damnnnnn I see Adzzie's nick and she was like "2 reports to do....1 down 1 to go.... TIME FOR INTENSE STUDYING!!!" so she is obviously not free! Christine has work every morning at 9 so she's not really free as well. BUT THAT'S ALL OKAY, WE CAN ALWAYS GET TOGETHER AFTER EXAMS AT SUBCULTURE!!
*OOooo that's right, Sophia! They are still selling tickets to Subculture at the Curtin sports store. You & Dom still interested? It's $59! hehe :p
The Veronicas - 4Ever
Here we are so what you gonna do Do I gotta spell it out for you I can see that you got other plans for tonight But I don’t really care
Size me up you know I beat the best Tick tock no time to rest Let them say what their gonna say But tonight I just don’t really care
Come on baby we aint gonna live forever Let me show you all the things that we could do You know I wanna be together And I wanna spend the night with you With you Come with me tonight We could make the night last forever
Ive seen it all I’ve got nothing to prove Come on baby just make your move Follow me lets leave it all behind tonight Like we just don’t care
Let me take you on the ride of your life That’s what I said alright They can say what they wanna say cuz tonight I just don’t even care
Come on baby we aint gonna live forever Let me show you all the things that we could do You know I wanna be together And I wanna spend the night with you With you Come with me tonight We could make the night last forever
Lets pretend your mine We could just pretend, we could just pretend, yeah yeah You got what I like You got what I like, I got what you like Oh come on Just one taste and you’ll want more
So tell me what your waiting for
Come on baby we aint gonna live forever Let me show you all the things that we could do You know I wanna be together And I wanna spend the night with you With you
Come with me tonight We could make the night last forever Come on baby we aint gonna live forever Let me show you all the things that we could do You know I wanna be together And I wanna spend the night with you With you Come with me tonight We could make the night last forever
I had this dream the other morning bout those silverfish thingys and they were crawling around in my bed and all over the floor! (Grossssss) And in my dream I grabbed the lil hand-held vac to get rid of them!! It was really weird and I felt a tad freaked out when I woke up!
So here’s what Rose Inserra of my Dictionary of Dreams said:
“Generally speaking, the insects in our dreams stand for the things that ‘bug’ us in our waking lives. Like insects themselves, these things may be small, but they can also be annoying and when there are large numbers of them, threatening or scary. You probably have your own personal list of insects you avoid. However, over the centuries most common insects have also accumulated broad cultural associations and these may be reflected in your dreams…” There wasn’t anything about “silverfish” so I guess I just have to classify it, under insects.
So what things have been “bugging” me?
- My relationship or lack of…
- Uni deadlines and exams
- Trying to find myself
- What I am gonna do bout Burswood and,
- Trying to balance an “interesting life” and “good grades in uni”
What a day today turned out to be!!!
Let's start with my Chinese presentation - shit... short... sad!
Then I rushed over to my Strat Mgmt poster presentation - excellent! Many interesting designs... + 1 x French Hottie!! Okay so I must elaborate on this new "croissant" or "escargot" fascination I suddenly developed today!!! (ok, "croissant sounds way better!) Well, let's just say my Kookie friend of mine introduced me to his "group member"...
Tassii... (erm I can't remember his French name!!). He was so HOT and he shook my hand! keke *drools* :p~~
So anyway, I decided to just leave it be and leave as the lecture was finishing (and we didn't win the poster competition... dammit!) and I was chatting away to Rowena and realised that I left my bag inside the lecture theatre... So I rushed back in and as I came back out I ended up right behind this French hottie!! So of course I indirectly followed him... hauhauha naa not really cos I was heading to meet Kathy at Angazi anyways... So whilst all that was happening I was so excited that I called everyone but noone picked up... and as I reached Angazi I realised he had already gone... so I felt a slight bit of disappointment! BUT the next thing you know, as I finally called through to Marge, I turned around about to scream out my new French discovery to find him sitting on the seats just behind me!!!!!!! hauhuahuauahuahuhauhuaha So farnieeeeeee.. But I'm proud of my new found "taste"! :p
Spent the rest of the afternoon with Kathy... We didn't get our order of beer battered chips because some stupid waitress "forgot" to place our order in!! Dammit, I was sooo hungry as well! Finally met up with Marge and we headed to grab some BBT. Then some how we found ourselves in Hit Studio (!?)... totally unplanned, but I guess we just couldn't resist!! There we bumped into Paul & Sandy (aww sweet couples... I wish I still was in one... *sigh*)... they were with some other friends, and were obviously having an early night since it was around 8 when we saw them!! hehe
We left Hit about 930 and headed down to Varga cos I was up for some free range Salsa!! OOoOoo Lahhlahhhhhh and this Aussie guy approached me and taught me, no he reminded me of some of da movessssssss! hehe His name was James and at first I thought he was one of the instructors!! hauhauau Then when I realised he wasn't I thought it was a tad strange that he kept dancing with me... but yeah it was FUN!!
Finally when I went back to Marge she was with 2 Jap guys and I thought, oOhh they must be tourists trying to crack onto her!!!!! hauhahaau BUT they were more than just ordinary tourists! One of them was the
Features Editor from
Esquire Magazine and the other was his photographer! How coooooooooool was that?! They were in Perth cos they wanted to do an article on it... Not much to say I'd say, but they said they were really happy to meet us! hehe We then ended up chatting till like 1230ish!! They're really inspirational! I wanna look into journalism... or maybe my graphic design again!!! hehe :p
- Highlight: Margaret, Sil Yu San, aka Carol Universe the Model! Or rather MISS UNIVERSE, CAROL!!! HAHAH! That's what the photographer reckons! I think that's a SIGN babes!!!!!
- Me, Wong Yee Mun, aka Beautiful Calm... ahuhauauauhuaua
Marge also reckons that I am too trusting in everyone... Is that true? I guess I do wear a pair of imaginary rose coloured glasses most of the time... Dammit... Gotta start being "street smart" now that I don't have anyone to take care of me no more...
That's how I have been feeling since Jimmy has wanted to endure this break of ours. Right now I feel that it is okay because I don't need anyone to make me happy. I don't need him, especially if he doesn't need me. I can continue living even without him in my life. All I need are my few but extremely wonderful girlfriends. Without them, I think I would truly die!!
So my new formula = No guy, no matter.
= Gfs are my everything!
And that's exactly how it should be! :D
A person who spends too much time on the Internet or the computer in general.
Damnit, he's been on Newgrounds all day. He is such a rasterbator .
Andrew described me as SMITTEN
To be really taken or pleased by someone.
After a few dates with Rob, Sarah was smitten as a kitten.
To be shy and flirtatious at the same time
Girl, you are so smitten!
to check a chick out w/out her knowin that your doin it; to be horney but at the same time calm
lexi made me so horney but i tried hard to be smitten so she wouldn't notice
And summore randoms...
The Mung
Involves to guys and a dead girl. The fisrt guy eats out the dead girl while the second guy runs and does a belly flop onto the dead girl making all her piss and what ever else, come out all over guy #1 ones face.
Gee Sam, that mung last night sure was fun.
Poop Lip
1. The lip of your sphyncter.2. A good name to call someone.
How's your poop lip?Your a big old poop lip.
Ass
(_!_) = Normal Ass(__!__) = Big Ass(!) = Tight Ass(_?_) = Dumb Ass(_E=MC2_) = Smart Ass(_$_) = Rich Ass(_x_) = Kiss My Ass(_X_) = Get Off My Ass
A Place where courageous people do the nasty
1)n. A type of donkey or mule2)n. a slang term to discribe the buttox3)n. A stupid or foolish person
1) I rode my ass up the mountain.2) I'll sake my ass in your face.3) Stop being an ass!
1. Vulgar Slang/Noun. The buttocks or anus.2. Vulgar Slang/Noun. A stupid, mean, or despicable person.3. Vulgar Slang/Adj. Very or quite a bit of.4. Vulgar Slang/Noun. An undesirable place of person.
1. Wow, Michel has a nice hot ass.2. Man, Randy was such an ass today. He forgot to come to school.3. Shit, that was a packed-ass club.3 (2). Whoah, that's a big-ass monster.4. Man, that place was the ass of the neighborhood.
Otta jihdroll
when stuff can get crazy and suddenly gets out of control, mad niggerish things can normally take place around this time
Maiinnn, i went to the mall and i was spendin scrilla airywhere and gotta me dis otfit that was otta jihdroll
And lastly, my fave!!!! [Thx Andrew!!]
Evelyn shizzle
A hott kick-ass girl who goes to a Private school in Pingry. She has so many guys following her, but she doesn't realize it. YOU ROCK CUTIE!That Ev is so hot, I wanna know her
someone who doesnt know anything and who is mentally challenged-wow, i didnt know is was such a stupid evelyn shizzle
the coolest person everyo girl, you think you're cool, but you ain't like evelyn shizzle!!
My hard night... my poor poor hips! :(
3 x B52s + 2 sips of Becks = One Happy Girl!.......
+ 1 x Burbon & Coke + 1 x Vodka Cranberry + 1 x Vodka Redbull = *pUKe*
I can't believe it. Really that wasn't a lot right? I guess I can't drink. I'm a cheap drunk!! Now I've got a hangover!
And what happened last night? OHMIGOSH. I so did not expect THAT to happen. HONEST. He is cute though, but WHATEVER. Whatever happens, happens.
And now all I can think about is how grateful I feel for my girls. I mean come on, how many guys would hold your hair back while you puke? NONE! Marge, my saviour, my angel... I even chucked on the necklace she lent me, and she didn't even say a word (although she was probably thinking, EWW gross, you can keep it now!! :P) She drove me home, asked me if I was alright... was patient and compassionate the whole time. THANKYOU BABES. I LOVE you!!!!
*And all my girls for that matter!
Saturday, October 22, 2005
Phone call from one whom I despise. Message from old colleague. DAMNITTTTTTTTTT! PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE... I have no answers. I don't want to face it. I cannot go back. PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. I will get over this by myself. DON'T MAKE ME RELIVE IT. I will deal with this MY WAY. I want to be able to sleep. THANKYOU.
Friday, October 21, 2005
We were watching Australian Idol and Anne sang this song so beautifully!! I felt touched by the lyrics and her voice was absolutely amazing! Go Anne! hehe SO I thought I'd dedicate this song to Jimmy... :)
Beyonce - Dangerously In LoveI love youBaby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrop
I am the sea
With you and God, who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud
So proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and messed up worldI am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me
And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am
Baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you
sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my sideEvery time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love and to hold
To feel
To breathe
To love youDangerously in love
Can't do this thing
I love you , I love you, I love you
I'll never leave
Just keep on loving me
I'm in love with you
I can not do
I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
Dangerously
I love you
Dangerously in love
Today was a rather productive day. I wrote 659 words! ahuahuauha That's extremely sad considering how much work I really have to do! But I had to cancel shopping with Janet. :( [Sorry love!] I really shouldn't have agreed to it last night, but I guess I really wanted to get out. I am glad I told her I couldn't go this morning though, cos I would've been regretting ALLLLL night if I had!! *phew*
AnyhOooo, Marge was good company cos we did more chatting than anything else! ahuahuauh No, not really, we did end up buckling down and even researched for our little trip away at the end of the year! WoOoo HoOooo HOW EXCITEMENT!!! I can't wait! I was even fast tracking to what sort of bags we would need for "safe travelling" and with that, Marge was like... "Ermm, maybe you shouldn't get so excited yet... I mean we haven't even booked our tickets!" PfTttttT, biatch, I was just excited you know!! Luckily I didn't tell her I was thinking bout all the summer dresses I was gonna include for our tropical getaway... otherwise she'd give me even more shit! keke :P
We're waiting for dinner now... Marge's mum is preparing beef horfun! keke YuMMmMMoOoooo! I can't wait cos I'm extremely hungry and aunty's food is always delish!!
I'm planning to do an all-nighter tonight so I can finish the report and rewrite the second one. I also want to start on my chinese portfolio and speech as well... That will be a lot of work... *sigh* But I guess not long till exams and then it'll allllll be overrrrrrrrrrr! Yay!! All this slaving away will be worth it in the end!
Hmm I wonder if Sophia will call me since she messaged me earlier to ask me if I was doing anything tonight. I guess I wouldn't mind a few hours away, but then again so much work... Better be a good girl and stay home... I DID however, mention that I'd rather do most of my work tonight and then head out for a bit Saturday night! :p After all, it is Nat's birthday tomorrow! hehe Wouldn't miss it for the world!!!!!!
Hrmm I really wanted to have my pics coordinated to the dates they were taken, but I can't be bothered shifting them as there's so many!! I've still got some more of the Moon Cafe and karaoke night, but I think I'll leave them again so that it's not alllllllll pics and nothing else!
Went to Garbo with Will and we walked around aimlessly...chatting! Was pretty alright since we could actually talk! Did everything I needed to do, mainly the resizing of THAT ring and buying cardboard for my presentations next week *eEk* so much work!! I'll just pretend that I am super free for now, cos I don't wanna stress before bed! keke I'm such a lazy shit sometimes...
Afterwards, I gave Janet a call (as I had promised) and then ended up going to her and Nat's place. It was such a lovely town house - modern and homey... Awwww so nice to see one of my high school friends settled and happy in their own little love shack!! :P Oh how I'd to have love her life! (graduated, working cool jobs, loving bf, not to mention a cute and obedient lil puppy!...hehe)
All in all, had a pretty easy night after four nights of hard core work!! I deserved to relax, I deserve it!!
Thursday, October 20, 2005
kekekeeeee!!
ai yahhhh !!!
and agenzzzz....
Look at Mah Posers!
KACHING!! hehe drunk on BBT!
We R sUcH pOsErs!
Crazy nation.....keke
When da 3 of us get together.... I look like an elf there! Scaryy shiettttttt!
Ebelliniii + Crispy Cremeeee
Awww mah 2 sisters!!!
Chinese convenient store lurvers! NOT!! @ Formosa!ahuahuahuuaau
Miss Darth Vader! OoOOo Mai is so hardcore! ahuahua
Everybody but Rraymond... Opps Marge!
I like this pic!!!
mailee + her lemon....chris + her boogies! ahuhauhaua
niceeeeee
Our newly discovered model + our designer... watta perfect match!
Cheesy grins!! Yeah babyyyyy
@ SPACE BAR - Chris + Mailee enjoying their wines!
Me + Mailee
Maggie Mee + Ebelliniiii
Look at the lurvlies!!!
Awwww Miss May + I
PIC OF DA NITE! *Note, Christine's squished face! Mwahahahaha :P
