Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Maggie Mee is going to Sydney tonight! Aww I wanna go too! I asked her if she minded taking me along, you know, in her luggage since I can't afford a ticket myself, but she said NO in case I died on the way there and she would be liable for murder! keke
Went to LV just earlier on with Jimmy's mum, grandma, aunty and cousin. Some of the new range is pretty gross but there were several stunning pieces, but of course stunning at those prices! We were there for I think 3 hours! No wonder I felt drained! I guess cos I wasn't the one doing the shopping so I lost interest after the first hour!
Talking about expensive branded stuff... I want an authentic Tiffany bracelet too! Aww I wish I could go to Sydney just to go to the Tiffany shop like Marge! And Christine is gonna get one cool bracelet, I'm SOOOO jealous!! Now I wish I didn't use my credit card on random stuff so I wouldn't have to worry about all the money I owe and be happy to use some of my savings on a nice item, such as a Tiffany bracelet! keke Aiyah, what's the point of wishing and wanting when I have no money anyways? Will have to do with my ebay one which doesn't even fit!! :p
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
I wish some people didn't see life as simple as sex, drugs and rock n roll. Okay so I'm not very creative, but I don't want my life to be like this.
Oh babes....
Pisces Feb 20 - Mar 20
Sun June 26, 2005
This is the perfect day for
establishing a strong emotional link with a certain person in your life, because not only will it help to improve things between you at the moment but it will also stand you in good stead for the future. You might offer this person lots of moral support if they need it, or simply reassure them how much you care for them. You won't overflow with emotion but your sincerity will be obvious.
Mon June 27, 2005
Yesterday found you slightly tongue-tied when talking about your feelings, but you have no problems in that department today. Instead, you'll find it surprisingly easy to put your feelings into words and to convey them to the right person. Maybe this is your cue to tell them
you love them or to pay them a heartfelt compliment.
*smilez* Thanks for the phone calls babes.
Venice. Another one of Andrew's master pieces... :) Doesn't it look so captivating? I'm lured into the moment...
OHMIGOSH! I can't believe I have not mentioned this yet!! Must've been cos I was too depressed at the end of Saturday night! Well anyways, I really, really hate cheap, stingy guys. First of all, my bf is the best, number one, okay, so let's keep that in mind while I go on... But looking around, every other guy was like from LOSER LAND that night. For instance, I bought three bottles of water to share with Kathy and Sophia. We were drinking them happily, until some stupid moron of a guy grabbed (one of the fullest bottles) and took a sip! Okay, fair enough, his group was kinda related to our group being someone's bf's friend... then he passed the drink to another loser to which he drank the whole thing and put it back! I was like WTF??? What a LOSER!! I mean come on, drink a girl's water, doesn't even buy another one for us and then pretends that one of us girls drank it all ourselves! Sheesh, at least my bf is not a loser! Thank goodness! What cheap bastards! I mean if we knew them then okay, fine, but we weren't even close! Where are people's manners these days?? Cheap guys summore. What is the world coming to?! So Kat and I came to the conclusion that we buy our own stuff and dun rely upon guys cos they're full of shit!
I have cravings from blueberry, raspberry and strawberry yogurt! And NOT those Yoplait ones, but the fresh yogurt with frozen berries! YuMmmooOooo! WHY? Cos I saw the Naked Chef prepare it on Oprah today! Who is this sexy naked chef? Why it is Jamie Oliver that's who! But he was far from naked, and I would be turned off if he cooked naked and I just don't wanna imagine him naked *gross* hehe :P But poor me I am sick so I cannot eat such cold things! Bad for my sore, sore throat! :( Aiyah, but since when have I ever been like that?! I always eat whatever I crave for! I live for cravings!! hehehe But where can I get those frozen berries from?? The freezer section in the supermarket? I must go grocery shopping then!!
Marge and I was having a heart to heart on Sunday afternoon... What were we talking about? Something along the lines of: The myth of actions speak louder than words. It is proven by some newspaper article that it is in fact untrue, that no matter what you do, expressing some things in words mean much more. So we came to the conclusion that talking, isn't such a bad thing afterall. I mean talking = communicating, which involves all forms, body language, sign language, words, but unless you are incapable of speaking, WORDS can never be substituted by just actions. Actions such as a touch of the hand, a hug, a kiss, shows positive emotions of love, desire, even lust... or just friendship... but by including a "I miss you", or a "How are you?", or even a "I love you" can change those actions to cater for what the person really wants to express to another person... I mean you can hug a friend when you meet them and say "How are you?" but you can also hug your mum and say "I love you"... Then you can kiss a friend and tell them that you miss them but without the words, not EVERYBODY would get you jigg... I mean if some friend from your class bumped into you and gave you a huge bear hug, you'd be thinking... Okay, a bit too touchy touchy, pervert... but with the words, "Oh, wow it's been so long, how are you??" (HUG) then everything falls into context don't they? We as girls believe that we can't live without words nor can we live without actions. A balance in both worlds is the best for a harmonious relationship. Sure a relationship which thrives on pure sex and LOTS of action may be a lot of fun, but after awhile, without conversation the action dissolves and there would be nothing left but smelly G-strings and werid sex toys, right?
Although keeping one's mouth shut at the appropriate times is truly a gift from heaven, learning to say things whether right or wrong will not do harm either... Okay sure, so you might say something which may piss your partner off leading to an hour of grumpy silence, but at least you said what you felt had to be said and it was left out in the open for discussion or even an argument. You can't keep everything to yourself because your partner is smarter than you think... especially being with you for some time, I think we all develop that sort of psychic telepathy thing that twins or weird people have... That's why some people can do something, not say a thing and the other understands... WELL what is my point? My point is, that we need to maintain a healthy medium of chatter and action so that relationship can grow from what is being said and done by both parties! KAPISH?? hahahhahahaha
Last night I had another way out there dream again! Okay, it might seem like I am desperate to get hitched but no… anyways so it went something like this:
I was at my wedding reception with my new hubby, (let’s guess who) Jimmy. I was in my beautiful wedding gown and he was handsomely smart in his suit… We looked perfect, but our wedding venue was weirdddddd cos it looked like we were in a class room and our guests were sitting in rows, not round tables (?!) and guests varied from my high school friends, Leena and them, my family and his family. His parents were rushing around cooking and serving (?!) and I could see on everyone’s face that this was the worst wedding they had ever attended… I mean it was disorganized, the venue was shit, it ran over time, and we didn’t even have a bridal table! No speech, no bridesmaid, best man, NOTHING! I even started serving the food because there was no service!! I guess it was some sort of budget wedding?? Or maybe I had wished for things to be so perfect that it just failed… I started off really happy but then started feeling overwhelmed and distressed.
Wedding = Dreaming of a wedding tends to symbolize commitment or relationship issues. For example, it may suggest your desire to be more involved in a relationship or partnership. If, however, your real-life partner is marrying somebody else in the dream, it is more likely to suggest your feelings of jealousy or insecurity. This dream can also symbolize any new beginning or enterprise, particularly if it involves a public celebration. Perhaps because such new beginnings tend to occur at the cost of the ‘death’ of a former life or identity, traditional gypsy lore interpreted this dream as the sign that the dreamer would soon be required to attend a funeral. (Definately the commitment or relationship issues because that's all I have been thinking about... I guess the wedding is a symbol that I Do want to be more involved in my relationship with my partner... the other aspect of new beginnings... what could that be? Us breaking up?? Well definately not, *choy choy* and funeral, *choy choy* summore!)
Well there was no Class room, so I thought I’d try looking up School.
School = Dreaming of school, most likely your old school, represents your learning and knowledge. Not only do we gain an education at school, however, but we also learn about group pressure, authority, social acceptance, competitiveness and all those things that shaped us as we were growing up. It is common to dream about school when you are about to undertake a new learning process. If you have this dream ask yourself whether you are preparing to embrace new attitudes, groups or knowledge. (Am I trying to change my ways? I don't know, not quite sure how to analyse this...)
There was also no Cooking or Serving…
Failure = This is a universal dream, which usually expresses a fear or inadequacy that the dreamer is unable to admit or face in his or her waking life. Like the examination dream, dreams of failure are to do with competitiveness and comparison. You may be feeling that whatever you’re striving for in your life seems unachievable or impossible. This, however, is only a reflection of your fears. A perfectionist, for example, always feels below standard. The dream may be indicating that if you tackle your problem differently, you will eventually succeed. (Unable to admit or face... that our relationship is dying? :( Whatever I am striving for seems unachievable or impossible... I just want to be loved in return, is that too much to ask for?)
If the dream relates more to things ‘failing’, such as lights that won’t work or a car tht won’t start, it may suggest that you need to take more control of situations and not allow external factors to overpower you. This may also be a warning that you are unprepared, and have not taken the necessary steps to succeed in waking life. If you heed the warning you should be able to begin to rectify the situation.
Distress = Rather than forecasting unhappiness, a dream in which you experience distress is often a reference to an influence in the past that once caused you unhappiness, but which is passing out of your life. Psychologically this type of dream represents healing from past distress or hurt. (Betrayal and deceit.)
Okay so all these meanings don't really mean much unless I apply them specifically to my own dreams... But I'll have to do that later since I have to get ready for coffee with my biatches!! :P
BTW hunni, I am really happy for you! *muakz*
I had a dream the other night… One of those weird ones that leave you thinking a lot…
Okay so I was supposedly outside Tea Fusion (but it didn’t really look like it but it felt like Tea Fusion) and I bumped into Jane, Jason’s sister outside and we got chatting and then one of her Indonesian friends (aunty-like friend dressed all hussy like and when I looked at her she looked like a Wayang, you know those Indonesian shadow puppet thingys… then she looked normal again) came up to us and asked me to show her my hand (cos she was a Fortune Teller) and she told me that I’d have to work on my relationship… and well I can’t remember the rest (dammnit!) and I left puzzled and entered Tea Fusion to meet my bf and his Viet friends. Inside it wasn’t Tea Fusion it was more like a restaurant or even just a café with Asians there… Anyway, my bf didn’t really seem happy to see me so I sat down and stayed quiet while they did their business… I felt really overwhelmed cos I felt so unwanted. Then I started to eat my gum and found myself choking on it so I went to the toilets which lead to an outside area with a little Japanese garden on the side (quite pretty, a bit like the one under the Psychology building in Curtin) and went inside… Inside the toilet looked like the waiting room of a doctor or dentist’s surgery, with magazines, some sofas, little coffee table, etc so I started pulling out some gum, kept pulling and pulling and it was a huge piece of gum cos I felt like I was pulling for ages… (so just imagine me with some green chewy shit coming out of my mouth…I guess I had the Peppermint Extras)… Suddenly a group of Korean business men came into the toilet room and started settling down as if it were their hotel room… I was thinking, Hello first of all this is the FEMALE toilets!!! At least settle in the MALE toilets! But then I realised that I was invisible to them… so I continued to do my thing, watched them do theirs then headed back to the café…
Yes, weird dream I know… So I will consult my Dictionary of Dreams and here’s what I came up with…
Puppet = Puppets don’t have control over their own movements, so if you dream of one it is a sign that you feel either manipulated, or driven by forces that are beyond your control. By dramatising your feelings of powerlessness, this dream could be trying to tell you to take back control. (I have been feeling powerless in the sense that I feel that I have lost control of myself. I will believe anything remotely positive because I am desperate for that feeling of reassurance again, so if anyone told me something good then I would want to believe it. Anything bad, I would dismiss it because bad things seem to make me lose my self control...)
Fortune-teller = Fortune-telling is associated with looking into the future for guidance and trusting in the opinion of those equipped with seemingly more knowledge. If you dream that you consult a fortune-teller, consider whether you are impatient to gain knowledge of some future event. Keep in mind that you are trusting someone who appears to have the knowledge, but that in fact only your actions can affect the future. This can also be a warning dream that tells you beware of false prophecy, and to find something out for yourself rather than believing what someone else tells you. (I guess having seen a fortune-teller before, this felt quite real... True, I keep thinking that it would be great if I could fast-forward my life a few years ahead and see how I would be then... whether my relationship would still be existant, whether we would be happy... Although it mentions that only my actions affect the future, I am scared to make any major moves because right now I know I cannot bear to be without him...)
Choking = This dream reflects your doubts concerning your ability to successfully compete an enterprise or undertaking. (I guess I feel doubt that this relationship we are engaging is working. Yet, I feel that the whole emotion of letting go, doubting really "chokes" me up, where I can't breathe... as corny as that may sound...)
Garden = A garden is a symbol of the dreamer’s inner self. Ideas and values are cultivated or ‘grow’ and expand throughout a lifetime. It’s important to note the condition of the garden. If it is a tidy garden, it indicates that you have an organised and conservative mind. An untidy or overgrown garden, on the other hand, reflects your lack of order and direction. It could also be pointing to past disappointments and a fear of new setbacks. A beautiful garden is a sign of happiness and prosperity, while an overgrown one is a warning to be more focused on your goals. It may be time to ‘weed out’ the unpleasant aspects of your nature. (Well in my dream, the garden was a beautiful Japanese garden, well kept and serene. Maybe it means that as I left the restaurant (where Jimmy was) I would still be okay, meaning that perhaps the grass will be greener for the both of us? That that uncomfortable feeling we shared dissolved as I left him... Or perhaps it could mean that we can achieve the happiness we once shared together once we overcome our obstacles, and in the dream it was me "choking" or not being able to deal with certain issues...)
There was no entry for waiting room, but there was one for waiting (but don’t know whether that really applies, but I’ll put it in anyways!)
Waiting = A dream in which you are forced to wait for something or someone exaggerates your feelings of impatience. Perhaps you feel unfairly held back at work or in your career and wish you could remove obstacles that stand in the way of your progress. However, this dream may be drawing your attention to the importance of patience or even suggesting that you need to accept a slower approach to your goals. (Well, I guess this is true because I am really impatient and can get frustrated easily when things don't work out to plan - especially when I am committed and/or if I was really looking forward to something... I can also be hot and cold where I'll start something with heaps of enthusiasm but usually have trouble finishing it because I lose interest or become lazy... I suppose that means that I don't really consider what I really want, so my goals are never reached...)
Man = A masculine figure that appears in our dreams indicates parts of our personality – the things that we possess and those that we want. An older man can represent wisdom or a father figure. A man in a woman’s dream can represent the masculine side of her nature – that is, the logical, strong, assertive elements that she requires to survive in the world. It may suggest that a woman wishes to get in touch with the masculine side of herself in order to cope better with what is at hand. A man dreaming of a man is in fact dreaming of himself. To understand how someone feels about the masculine side, consider these idioms: ‘be a man’, ‘make a man of’, ‘odd man out’, ‘man to man’. (Maybe those Korean business men represented my masculine side, that I needed to be logical, strong - as it states above... I mean I am usually so weak and always give in to everything... So their resemblence in my dream could have been encouragement to remain true and strong to myself, that things will be okay, and I can pick myself up and move on, even though I felt like everything was blowing out of proportion and I was "choking to death".)
Invisible = Something in your dream that is invisible, but is affecting you, is likely to be a sign of some force in your life, such as a parent or other authority figure, who is continuing to play a role in your life. If you yourself are invisible, the dream suggests either that you feel unable to make the impact on others that you would like, or that there is something in your past that you would rather forget. Generally, if the dreamer feels as if they are constantly put on public display in real life then such a dream is playing out an internal waking desire. (Yes, definately, the "unable to make the impact on others that you would like"... I feel that I want hunni to understand how I feel, to love me back the way I love him, yet I feel that I am invisible to him, that my efforts just don't seem to be working... Something in the past that I would rather forget? Being hurt by people I love I guess. I suppose that is something everyone doesn't want. That terrible feeling of something you once shared, into a NOTHING, a NOBODY... That's the worst feeling in the world.)
Aiyah this analysis is hard. Can people give me some ideas? I am trying to put everything together and it's harder than I thought... I feel like I am analysing those aspects individually than on the dream as a whole!!
Being the goodie goodie that I am, I will reference cos I'm scared of being charged of plagerism!
Inserra, R 2003, Dictionary of Dreams, Understanding Dreams & Their Messages, Hinkler Books Pty Ltd, Victoria.
Monday, June 27, 2005
I think gnor yow mun tai... Yes, seriously got some bugs in my head. I had a head ache from when I woke up till 730ish when we ate dinner. I actually felt like I was dying, like the one time in high school when I suddenly felt cold shivers and couldn't walk... I just collapsed as if life had been sucked out of my body. I felt like that today. It was a horrible feeling. I guess dying wouldn't be a nice feeling anyway. Would be really hard just to leave everything you have... not just in terms of physically melting away or being crushed to death or what ever. Anyways, after finally giving in to 2 Panadols and some extra snoozing, I felt a little bit better.
OHMIGOSH... hunni called and we spoke for 18 minutes and 3 seconds. The highlight of my day! I think I have miraculously recovered, but my sore throat and fever is still here! :p I tried not to sound too excited though, I was scared that I would start sounding clingy again... But I'm sick so I guess I sounded pretty monotone anyways...
Cancelled my gym visit for tomorrow 4pm cos I fell sick and plus I gotta meet up with the girls before Maggie Mee leaves for Sydney! Ahh lucki bitch!! :P Then Wednesday, hunni's mum asked me to go to look at LV with her and his other aunties. I felt privileged! But I'm quite sick right now and I don't know if I have the energy to "shop" and maintain that smile of mine, because I do feel drained. So I don't know whether I should cancel or not... I guess I'll see how I feel tomorrow.
After hard core kok, n bbt... we take summore pics lor... while waiting for Mr mysterious to pic us up for some honey beer, pasta n waffles... Marge you lucki biatchie!
Nice.. our day trip to the city a few days ago!
Ohmigosh! Pic of the night I'd say! I look so stoopid it's hilarious!!!!!!
I can never look sweet.. unlike Christine Jie, always the sweet mamma! *sLuRp*
Yes, Retards Headquarters, calling for new recruits!
Once again I am at it... cos I like to touch you all you see!! But Maggie Mee enjoys it!
I just noticed I am VERY into my hugging & gripping.. look at me sqeezing Crispy to death! She's gonna PoP! a little fart out soon!! :P
Biatchie + Biatch get spasticated late at night... roaming da streets to spread the fun!
Last attempt = Success lah! Look at our tired grins...
A would have been a nice pic except May was feeling sleepy!
This is not what it looks! I was pushed I tell you! And stoopid May, camera shy leads to us trying to get her into the pic over and over again!!!!!!!! ahhahahahah See how I am pinching her arm!!!!!!!!!!
Some drunken eedioooooottttttttttt!
Party of the spastics! Wheeeee Wheeee Wheeee we say... spastics shouldn't be given alcohol, and look at my strong man arms! Strong to caress you with... MMmMMm *winkz*
Yes, as Anna says I was concealing her stomach but in fact I was concealing mine and I guess hers in the process!! hehehe
Another lovely group pic!! Me being the tourist that I am! What's with my cone boobs? Aiyooorrr
Look at these crazy ppls! Margie getting a bit tipsy?? Noo, her face is always rosy!!
Oh stray hair still there... but the blur of the pic makes us look oh so much nicer lor!
Me and my biatchie... What's with my stray hair??
Anna + Another Friend...
Anna + some Atrium ppls (I can only rmb May and Francine??) Aiyah, I can't rmb their names! Shame on me!!
Anna + Me + Marge = Friends Forever
Oh yes, Marge was high, look at her crooked mouth man, very very high lah!
Jeff's new nose (with sesame summore!) Quite a fashion statement! Very, very cool dude!!
Anna & I drinking n eating! Look at my bed hair!!!
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Maggie Mee is going to Sydney tonight! Aww I wanna go too! I asked her if she minded taking me along, you know, in her luggage since I can't afford a ticket myself, but she said NO in case I died on the way there and she would be liable for murder! keke
Went to LV just earlier on with Jimmy's mum, grandma, aunty and cousin. Some of the new range is pretty gross but there were several stunning pieces, but of course stunning at those prices! We were there for I think 3 hours! No wonder I felt drained! I guess cos I wasn't the one doing the shopping so I lost interest after the first hour!
Talking about expensive branded stuff... I want an authentic Tiffany bracelet too! Aww I wish I could go to Sydney just to go to the Tiffany shop like Marge! And Christine is gonna get one cool bracelet, I'm SOOOO jealous!! Now I wish I didn't use my credit card on random stuff so I wouldn't have to worry about all the money I owe and be happy to use some of my savings on a nice item, such as a Tiffany bracelet! keke Aiyah, what's the point of wishing and wanting when I have no money anyways? Will have to do with my ebay one which doesn't even fit!! :p
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
I wish some people didn't see life as simple as sex, drugs and rock n roll. Okay so I'm not very creative, but I don't want my life to be like this.
Oh babes....
Pisces Feb 20 - Mar 20
Sun June 26, 2005
This is the perfect day for
establishing a strong emotional link with a certain person in your life, because not only will it help to improve things between you at the moment but it will also stand you in good stead for the future. You might offer this person lots of moral support if they need it, or simply reassure them how much you care for them. You won't overflow with emotion but your sincerity will be obvious.
Mon June 27, 2005
Yesterday found you slightly tongue-tied when talking about your feelings, but you have no problems in that department today. Instead, you'll find it surprisingly easy to put your feelings into words and to convey them to the right person. Maybe this is your cue to tell them
you love them or to pay them a heartfelt compliment.
*smilez* Thanks for the phone calls babes.
Venice. Another one of Andrew's master pieces... :) Doesn't it look so captivating? I'm lured into the moment...
OHMIGOSH! I can't believe I have not mentioned this yet!! Must've been cos I was too depressed at the end of Saturday night! Well anyways, I really, really hate cheap, stingy guys. First of all, my bf is the best, number one, okay, so let's keep that in mind while I go on... But looking around, every other guy was like from LOSER LAND that night. For instance, I bought three bottles of water to share with Kathy and Sophia. We were drinking them happily, until some stupid moron of a guy grabbed (one of the fullest bottles) and took a sip! Okay, fair enough, his group was kinda related to our group being someone's bf's friend... then he passed the drink to another loser to which he drank the whole thing and put it back! I was like WTF??? What a LOSER!! I mean come on, drink a girl's water, doesn't even buy another one for us and then pretends that one of us girls drank it all ourselves! Sheesh, at least my bf is not a loser! Thank goodness! What cheap bastards! I mean if we knew them then okay, fine, but we weren't even close! Where are people's manners these days?? Cheap guys summore. What is the world coming to?! So Kat and I came to the conclusion that we buy our own stuff and dun rely upon guys cos they're full of shit!
I have cravings from blueberry, raspberry and strawberry yogurt! And NOT those Yoplait ones, but the fresh yogurt with frozen berries! YuMmmooOooo! WHY? Cos I saw the Naked Chef prepare it on Oprah today! Who is this sexy naked chef? Why it is Jamie Oliver that's who! But he was far from naked, and I would be turned off if he cooked naked and I just don't wanna imagine him naked *gross* hehe :P But poor me I am sick so I cannot eat such cold things! Bad for my sore, sore throat! :( Aiyah, but since when have I ever been like that?! I always eat whatever I crave for! I live for cravings!! hehehe But where can I get those frozen berries from?? The freezer section in the supermarket? I must go grocery shopping then!!
Marge and I was having a heart to heart on Sunday afternoon... What were we talking about? Something along the lines of: The myth of actions speak louder than words. It is proven by some newspaper article that it is in fact untrue, that no matter what you do, expressing some things in words mean much more. So we came to the conclusion that talking, isn't such a bad thing afterall. I mean talking = communicating, which involves all forms, body language, sign language, words, but unless you are incapable of speaking, WORDS can never be substituted by just actions. Actions such as a touch of the hand, a hug, a kiss, shows positive emotions of love, desire, even lust... or just friendship... but by including a "I miss you", or a "How are you?", or even a "I love you" can change those actions to cater for what the person really wants to express to another person... I mean you can hug a friend when you meet them and say "How are you?" but you can also hug your mum and say "I love you"... Then you can kiss a friend and tell them that you miss them but without the words, not EVERYBODY would get you jigg... I mean if some friend from your class bumped into you and gave you a huge bear hug, you'd be thinking... Okay, a bit too touchy touchy, pervert... but with the words, "Oh, wow it's been so long, how are you??" (HUG) then everything falls into context don't they? We as girls believe that we can't live without words nor can we live without actions. A balance in both worlds is the best for a harmonious relationship. Sure a relationship which thrives on pure sex and LOTS of action may be a lot of fun, but after awhile, without conversation the action dissolves and there would be nothing left but smelly G-strings and werid sex toys, right?
Although keeping one's mouth shut at the appropriate times is truly a gift from heaven, learning to say things whether right or wrong will not do harm either... Okay sure, so you might say something which may piss your partner off leading to an hour of grumpy silence, but at least you said what you felt had to be said and it was left out in the open for discussion or even an argument. You can't keep everything to yourself because your partner is smarter than you think... especially being with you for some time, I think we all develop that sort of psychic telepathy thing that twins or weird people have... That's why some people can do something, not say a thing and the other understands... WELL what is my point? My point is, that we need to maintain a healthy medium of chatter and action so that relationship can grow from what is being said and done by both parties! KAPISH?? hahahhahahaha
Last night I had another way out there dream again! Okay, it might seem like I am desperate to get hitched but no… anyways so it went something like this:
I was at my wedding reception with my new hubby, (let’s guess who) Jimmy. I was in my beautiful wedding gown and he was handsomely smart in his suit… We looked perfect, but our wedding venue was weirdddddd cos it looked like we were in a class room and our guests were sitting in rows, not round tables (?!) and guests varied from my high school friends, Leena and them, my family and his family. His parents were rushing around cooking and serving (?!) and I could see on everyone’s face that this was the worst wedding they had ever attended… I mean it was disorganized, the venue was shit, it ran over time, and we didn’t even have a bridal table! No speech, no bridesmaid, best man, NOTHING! I even started serving the food because there was no service!! I guess it was some sort of budget wedding?? Or maybe I had wished for things to be so perfect that it just failed… I started off really happy but then started feeling overwhelmed and distressed.
Wedding = Dreaming of a wedding tends to symbolize commitment or relationship issues. For example, it may suggest your desire to be more involved in a relationship or partnership. If, however, your real-life partner is marrying somebody else in the dream, it is more likely to suggest your feelings of jealousy or insecurity. This dream can also symbolize any new beginning or enterprise, particularly if it involves a public celebration. Perhaps because such new beginnings tend to occur at the cost of the ‘death’ of a former life or identity, traditional gypsy lore interpreted this dream as the sign that the dreamer would soon be required to attend a funeral. (Definately the commitment or relationship issues because that's all I have been thinking about... I guess the wedding is a symbol that I Do want to be more involved in my relationship with my partner... the other aspect of new beginnings... what could that be? Us breaking up?? Well definately not, *choy choy* and funeral, *choy choy* summore!)
Well there was no Class room, so I thought I’d try looking up School.
School = Dreaming of school, most likely your old school, represents your learning and knowledge. Not only do we gain an education at school, however, but we also learn about group pressure, authority, social acceptance, competitiveness and all those things that shaped us as we were growing up. It is common to dream about school when you are about to undertake a new learning process. If you have this dream ask yourself whether you are preparing to embrace new attitudes, groups or knowledge. (Am I trying to change my ways? I don't know, not quite sure how to analyse this...)
There was also no Cooking or Serving…
Failure = This is a universal dream, which usually expresses a fear or inadequacy that the dreamer is unable to admit or face in his or her waking life. Like the examination dream, dreams of failure are to do with competitiveness and comparison. You may be feeling that whatever you’re striving for in your life seems unachievable or impossible. This, however, is only a reflection of your fears. A perfectionist, for example, always feels below standard. The dream may be indicating that if you tackle your problem differently, you will eventually succeed. (Unable to admit or face... that our relationship is dying? :( Whatever I am striving for seems unachievable or impossible... I just want to be loved in return, is that too much to ask for?)
If the dream relates more to things ‘failing’, such as lights that won’t work or a car tht won’t start, it may suggest that you need to take more control of situations and not allow external factors to overpower you. This may also be a warning that you are unprepared, and have not taken the necessary steps to succeed in waking life. If you heed the warning you should be able to begin to rectify the situation.
Distress = Rather than forecasting unhappiness, a dream in which you experience distress is often a reference to an influence in the past that once caused you unhappiness, but which is passing out of your life. Psychologically this type of dream represents healing from past distress or hurt. (Betrayal and deceit.)
Okay so all these meanings don't really mean much unless I apply them specifically to my own dreams... But I'll have to do that later since I have to get ready for coffee with my biatches!! :P
BTW hunni, I am really happy for you! *muakz*
I had a dream the other night… One of those weird ones that leave you thinking a lot…
Okay so I was supposedly outside Tea Fusion (but it didn’t really look like it but it felt like Tea Fusion) and I bumped into Jane, Jason’s sister outside and we got chatting and then one of her Indonesian friends (aunty-like friend dressed all hussy like and when I looked at her she looked like a Wayang, you know those Indonesian shadow puppet thingys… then she looked normal again) came up to us and asked me to show her my hand (cos she was a Fortune Teller) and she told me that I’d have to work on my relationship… and well I can’t remember the rest (dammnit!) and I left puzzled and entered Tea Fusion to meet my bf and his Viet friends. Inside it wasn’t Tea Fusion it was more like a restaurant or even just a café with Asians there… Anyway, my bf didn’t really seem happy to see me so I sat down and stayed quiet while they did their business… I felt really overwhelmed cos I felt so unwanted. Then I started to eat my gum and found myself choking on it so I went to the toilets which lead to an outside area with a little Japanese garden on the side (quite pretty, a bit like the one under the Psychology building in Curtin) and went inside… Inside the toilet looked like the waiting room of a doctor or dentist’s surgery, with magazines, some sofas, little coffee table, etc so I started pulling out some gum, kept pulling and pulling and it was a huge piece of gum cos I felt like I was pulling for ages… (so just imagine me with some green chewy shit coming out of my mouth…I guess I had the Peppermint Extras)… Suddenly a group of Korean business men came into the toilet room and started settling down as if it were their hotel room… I was thinking, Hello first of all this is the FEMALE toilets!!! At least settle in the MALE toilets! But then I realised that I was invisible to them… so I continued to do my thing, watched them do theirs then headed back to the café…
Yes, weird dream I know… So I will consult my Dictionary of Dreams and here’s what I came up with…
Puppet = Puppets don’t have control over their own movements, so if you dream of one it is a sign that you feel either manipulated, or driven by forces that are beyond your control. By dramatising your feelings of powerlessness, this dream could be trying to tell you to take back control. (I have been feeling powerless in the sense that I feel that I have lost control of myself. I will believe anything remotely positive because I am desperate for that feeling of reassurance again, so if anyone told me something good then I would want to believe it. Anything bad, I would dismiss it because bad things seem to make me lose my self control...)
Fortune-teller = Fortune-telling is associated with looking into the future for guidance and trusting in the opinion of those equipped with seemingly more knowledge. If you dream that you consult a fortune-teller, consider whether you are impatient to gain knowledge of some future event. Keep in mind that you are trusting someone who appears to have the knowledge, but that in fact only your actions can affect the future. This can also be a warning dream that tells you beware of false prophecy, and to find something out for yourself rather than believing what someone else tells you. (I guess having seen a fortune-teller before, this felt quite real... True, I keep thinking that it would be great if I could fast-forward my life a few years ahead and see how I would be then... whether my relationship would still be existant, whether we would be happy... Although it mentions that only my actions affect the future, I am scared to make any major moves because right now I know I cannot bear to be without him...)
Choking = This dream reflects your doubts concerning your ability to successfully compete an enterprise or undertaking. (I guess I feel doubt that this relationship we are engaging is working. Yet, I feel that the whole emotion of letting go, doubting really "chokes" me up, where I can't breathe... as corny as that may sound...)
Garden = A garden is a symbol of the dreamer’s inner self. Ideas and values are cultivated or ‘grow’ and expand throughout a lifetime. It’s important to note the condition of the garden. If it is a tidy garden, it indicates that you have an organised and conservative mind. An untidy or overgrown garden, on the other hand, reflects your lack of order and direction. It could also be pointing to past disappointments and a fear of new setbacks. A beautiful garden is a sign of happiness and prosperity, while an overgrown one is a warning to be more focused on your goals. It may be time to ‘weed out’ the unpleasant aspects of your nature. (Well in my dream, the garden was a beautiful Japanese garden, well kept and serene. Maybe it means that as I left the restaurant (where Jimmy was) I would still be okay, meaning that perhaps the grass will be greener for the both of us? That that uncomfortable feeling we shared dissolved as I left him... Or perhaps it could mean that we can achieve the happiness we once shared together once we overcome our obstacles, and in the dream it was me "choking" or not being able to deal with certain issues...)
There was no entry for waiting room, but there was one for waiting (but don’t know whether that really applies, but I’ll put it in anyways!)
Waiting = A dream in which you are forced to wait for something or someone exaggerates your feelings of impatience. Perhaps you feel unfairly held back at work or in your career and wish you could remove obstacles that stand in the way of your progress. However, this dream may be drawing your attention to the importance of patience or even suggesting that you need to accept a slower approach to your goals. (Well, I guess this is true because I am really impatient and can get frustrated easily when things don't work out to plan - especially when I am committed and/or if I was really looking forward to something... I can also be hot and cold where I'll start something with heaps of enthusiasm but usually have trouble finishing it because I lose interest or become lazy... I suppose that means that I don't really consider what I really want, so my goals are never reached...)
Man = A masculine figure that appears in our dreams indicates parts of our personality – the things that we possess and those that we want. An older man can represent wisdom or a father figure. A man in a woman’s dream can represent the masculine side of her nature – that is, the logical, strong, assertive elements that she requires to survive in the world. It may suggest that a woman wishes to get in touch with the masculine side of herself in order to cope better with what is at hand. A man dreaming of a man is in fact dreaming of himself. To understand how someone feels about the masculine side, consider these idioms: ‘be a man’, ‘make a man of’, ‘odd man out’, ‘man to man’. (Maybe those Korean business men represented my masculine side, that I needed to be logical, strong - as it states above... I mean I am usually so weak and always give in to everything... So their resemblence in my dream could have been encouragement to remain true and strong to myself, that things will be okay, and I can pick myself up and move on, even though I felt like everything was blowing out of proportion and I was "choking to death".)
Invisible = Something in your dream that is invisible, but is affecting you, is likely to be a sign of some force in your life, such as a parent or other authority figure, who is continuing to play a role in your life. If you yourself are invisible, the dream suggests either that you feel unable to make the impact on others that you would like, or that there is something in your past that you would rather forget. Generally, if the dreamer feels as if they are constantly put on public display in real life then such a dream is playing out an internal waking desire. (Yes, definately, the "unable to make the impact on others that you would like"... I feel that I want hunni to understand how I feel, to love me back the way I love him, yet I feel that I am invisible to him, that my efforts just don't seem to be working... Something in the past that I would rather forget? Being hurt by people I love I guess. I suppose that is something everyone doesn't want. That terrible feeling of something you once shared, into a NOTHING, a NOBODY... That's the worst feeling in the world.)
Aiyah this analysis is hard. Can people give me some ideas? I am trying to put everything together and it's harder than I thought... I feel like I am analysing those aspects individually than on the dream as a whole!!
Being the goodie goodie that I am, I will reference cos I'm scared of being charged of plagerism!
Inserra, R 2003, Dictionary of Dreams, Understanding Dreams & Their Messages, Hinkler Books Pty Ltd, Victoria.
Monday, June 27, 2005
I think gnor yow mun tai... Yes, seriously got some bugs in my head. I had a head ache from when I woke up till 730ish when we ate dinner. I actually felt like I was dying, like the one time in high school when I suddenly felt cold shivers and couldn't walk... I just collapsed as if life had been sucked out of my body. I felt like that today. It was a horrible feeling. I guess dying wouldn't be a nice feeling anyway. Would be really hard just to leave everything you have... not just in terms of physically melting away or being crushed to death or what ever. Anyways, after finally giving in to 2 Panadols and some extra snoozing, I felt a little bit better.
OHMIGOSH... hunni called and we spoke for 18 minutes and 3 seconds. The highlight of my day! I think I have miraculously recovered, but my sore throat and fever is still here! :p I tried not to sound too excited though, I was scared that I would start sounding clingy again... But I'm sick so I guess I sounded pretty monotone anyways...
Cancelled my gym visit for tomorrow 4pm cos I fell sick and plus I gotta meet up with the girls before Maggie Mee leaves for Sydney! Ahh lucki bitch!! :P Then Wednesday, hunni's mum asked me to go to look at LV with her and his other aunties. I felt privileged! But I'm quite sick right now and I don't know if I have the energy to "shop" and maintain that smile of mine, because I do feel drained. So I don't know whether I should cancel or not... I guess I'll see how I feel tomorrow.
After hard core kok, n bbt... we take summore pics lor... while waiting for Mr mysterious to pic us up for some honey beer, pasta n waffles... Marge you lucki biatchie!
Nice.. our day trip to the city a few days ago!
Ohmigosh! Pic of the night I'd say! I look so stoopid it's hilarious!!!!!!
I can never look sweet.. unlike Christine Jie, always the sweet mamma! *sLuRp*
Yes, Retards Headquarters, calling for new recruits!
Once again I am at it... cos I like to touch you all you see!! But Maggie Mee enjoys it!
I just noticed I am VERY into my hugging & gripping.. look at me sqeezing Crispy to death! She's gonna PoP! a little fart out soon!! :P
Biatchie + Biatch get spasticated late at night... roaming da streets to spread the fun!
Last attempt = Success lah! Look at our tired grins...
A would have been a nice pic except May was feeling sleepy!
This is not what it looks! I was pushed I tell you! And stoopid May, camera shy leads to us trying to get her into the pic over and over again!!!!!!!! ahhahahahah See how I am pinching her arm!!!!!!!!!!
Some drunken eedioooooottttttttttt!
Party of the spastics! Wheeeee Wheeee Wheeee we say... spastics shouldn't be given alcohol, and look at my strong man arms! Strong to caress you with... MMmMMm *winkz*
Yes, as Anna says I was concealing her stomach but in fact I was concealing mine and I guess hers in the process!! hehehe
Another lovely group pic!! Me being the tourist that I am! What's with my cone boobs? Aiyooorrr
Look at these crazy ppls! Margie getting a bit tipsy?? Noo, her face is always rosy!!
Oh stray hair still there... but the blur of the pic makes us look oh so much nicer lor!
Me and my biatchie... What's with my stray hair??
Anna + Another Friend...
Anna + some Atrium ppls (I can only rmb May and Francine??) Aiyah, I can't rmb their names! Shame on me!!
Anna + Me + Marge = Friends Forever
Oh yes, Marge was high, look at her crooked mouth man, very very high lah!
Jeff's new nose (with sesame summore!) Quite a fashion statement! Very, very cool dude!!
Anna & I drinking n eating! Look at my bed hair!!!
