The wall that's been between you is showing signs of crumbling, so get out that pickax and help it along. Sure, it's somewhat scary; those little vulnerabilities you've been hiding so successfully on your side are about to be revealed. But when they're standing there, all puny and blinking, you'll probably realize that they're actually kind of cute, or at least pretty darn funny. Save a tiny piece of the wall to remind you of the days before the fall -- it'll be a collector's item at some point.
Talking about it openly last night almost got me on the verge of tears... It actually hurt while I was talking and thinking and thinking and talking about it! Can y'all believe it?? Maybe I've got trust issues but I know that my partner is a clean as... as... as can be! As innocent as a bee! So I really don't know how anything brought it on... I guess I feel in the dark sometimes... Like I don't know what's going on anymore. I hate being clueless - I like to be in touch with my feelings, his feelings, our feelings... I also hate not being acknowledged as you all already know! If you don't acknowledge that I'm alive, I'd probably ignore you too! But if you're at least a "Hey, how are you...." and then a "Bye" then I'd like you!! hehehe I was just brought up to greet people you know. It's not such a difficult thing... Unless I had got PMS and was just momentarily angry at the world... then please forgive me if I didn't fulfill general courteousy!!! Sorry lah!! :p
Well after a nice little catch up with Maggie Mee, I decided to take on Angela's offer to join her at her place for a going away party for a Mr-I-Don't-Know-Who!!! But I really wanted to get out and about since I had been slaying away for the past week and a bit so much that even a "party" sounded good. Cheesy, but good! (*Note: I said cheesy cos the term "party" sounds OH SO high school, junior high... don't you reckon??!) Anyway, arrived there to find some old Lynwood boyz! How EMBARRASSMENT!! I was shocked but we didn't really speak, just played drinking games (to which the girls won by far!!!! So that's where lady luck came about!!) *hic* and I just found out that I am not a drinker and definately not an alcoholic!!! For sure, Mate!! Cos I pretty much hate all forms of spirits, or maybe just tequila shots cos I think I was gone after 4 and 2 beers... I was light headed, loud, hot and flustered, not to mention I freaking had to pee every 5 minutes!! But I guess I did all that within the hour cos I got there at about 11 and we left to go to Dreamland probably about 1230! So no, I can't be classified as a CHEAP DRUNK... yet!!! HAAAAAAAAaaa! I'm just crazy cos I didn't think that I had to drive home... that's what desperation to GET OUT does to ya! So my early night ended up not so early getting home and sleeping at 4ish am!!! -_- Yah so tired man!!! But I'm up and ready to study (no hang over, woohoo!) and just waiting for my boy to wake up and call me... so I can be his maid and clean out his room... :p thanks babe, you better be my slave in return later *wink*
No lah, I'm freaking studying my ASS off... studying the Korean Language or Han gul as I just learnt a few days ago! This Korean Winter Intensive course is a tough cookie might I add. Let's see, I have to go to class everyday Monday to Friday from 9am to 3pm, then we learn a unit a day, then I have to do sets of homework (pages and pages worth) every night, and we have tests every 2 days on 2 units per test!! PHWOAR... I'm out of breath explaining it to you guys.. okay more like my right hand has developed some severe arthritis where I've got my hand permanently in the 'pen-holding' position!! How super sad!! I look really retarded now! :p
Talking about looks an aunty at work told me that my hair looked like grass. Can you believe how CRUSHED I felt for the rest of the night?! Hell yeah my ego was bruised! hahah jkz, but yeah since Korean started, I haven't been maintaining ANYTHING... I've got bushes and I think my mono-brow is growing back! ahuahuauhhauha Yes the hairiness is coming back... back in fashion I hope lah! Besides growth, the hair on my head has been utterly disgusting because of the bleach + perm = dead hair that I've got now... I was advised by Ivy to have a trim!! Yes, she is one of those trendy aunties, I mean she has even had ther hair chemically straightened!! How IN is that?! But thanks, Ivy for pointing out my grassy hair at work... I feel like my hair is really gross now and I can't wear a hat to cover it cos I SO don't suit hats and look really China woman cos most hats not only don't FIT my small head, but also don't SUIT my heart shaped face!! GRRR I hate my face!!
Keeping busy hasn't been that bad though.. At least I'm not sitting around waiting for phone calls etc anymore!! I'm freaking studying (which is definately out of character!) during semester break (ohmigosh right?! I know! Who would have thought I'd put myself thru all this??! And during my holidays too!! *sniff sniff*), so a GOLD STAR to ME!! hehe For all my hard work and efforts!! Aiyah, but I just saw a notification from oasis that I was granted a supp exam for bus stats!! :( Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! Let me just cry a little first. But I am also kinda relieved cos if I pass it second round then I won't have to repeat it next semester! Wooo Hooo, now all I need to do is learn everything again... since I didn't do shit all when I was supposed to... But are supp exams harder??? I've never done one before... feeling a bit scared now.. oh no I hope I don't have tummy upsets now... stress does that to me sometimes... hahah a secret no longer! ahuahuauahuauahauahua jkzz The supp is next Turdsday... haha... typos can be so farnieeeeeeeeeee... *hic* BurPPppppPppp* Thursday I mean... Ai yah I so hope I passed my trade and banking unit otherwise if I fail this supp exam I will have to overload and that's definately a NO NO cos I know I will do even more shit if I don't have time to relax... you know bum around and all! I wanna graduate with at least distinctions you know! So plz plz I gotta do well for this supp exam, and plz plz let me pass Trade and Banking!!! I can't afford to fail!!!!!
Anyways, I'm lazy to type now cos I think my arthritis is flaring up and not to mention I've got some back ache!! Feeling older than I am already!! Ai yah my birthday and I will be 23! Almost mid 20's... How sad!! I already left the 'teens' and now reaching mid twenties I already feel some pains and aches!! Gosh I think I really need to work out!! Or maybe just a good night's sleep will do the trick!! :p Luckily I've got Kathy to learn Korean with... Luckily cos she's a ball of sunshine everyday so always a pleasure to hang with her! Thanks sweetie! I know you kicked my ass in our test today so stop pretending you stuffed up!!!
Ciao all... Wish me luck for Korean and my supp okies!
The wall that's been between you is showing signs of crumbling, so get out that pickax and help it along. Sure, it's somewhat scary; those little vulnerabilities you've been hiding so successfully on your side are about to be revealed. But when they're standing there, all puny and blinking, you'll probably realize that they're actually kind of cute, or at least pretty darn funny. Save a tiny piece of the wall to remind you of the days before the fall -- it'll be a collector's item at some point.
Talking about it openly last night almost got me on the verge of tears... It actually hurt while I was talking and thinking and thinking and talking about it! Can y'all believe it?? Maybe I've got trust issues but I know that my partner is a clean as... as... as can be! As innocent as a bee! So I really don't know how anything brought it on... I guess I feel in the dark sometimes... Like I don't know what's going on anymore. I hate being clueless - I like to be in touch with my feelings, his feelings, our feelings... I also hate not being acknowledged as you all already know! If you don't acknowledge that I'm alive, I'd probably ignore you too! But if you're at least a "Hey, how are you...." and then a "Bye" then I'd like you!! hehehe I was just brought up to greet people you know. It's not such a difficult thing... Unless I had got PMS and was just momentarily angry at the world... then please forgive me if I didn't fulfill general courteousy!!! Sorry lah!! :p
Well after a nice little catch up with Maggie Mee, I decided to take on Angela's offer to join her at her place for a going away party for a Mr-I-Don't-Know-Who!!! But I really wanted to get out and about since I had been slaying away for the past week and a bit so much that even a "party" sounded good. Cheesy, but good! (*Note: I said cheesy cos the term "party" sounds OH SO high school, junior high... don't you reckon??!) Anyway, arrived there to find some old Lynwood boyz! How EMBARRASSMENT!! I was shocked but we didn't really speak, just played drinking games (to which the girls won by far!!!! So that's where lady luck came about!!) *hic* and I just found out that I am not a drinker and definately not an alcoholic!!! For sure, Mate!! Cos I pretty much hate all forms of spirits, or maybe just tequila shots cos I think I was gone after 4 and 2 beers... I was light headed, loud, hot and flustered, not to mention I freaking had to pee every 5 minutes!! But I guess I did all that within the hour cos I got there at about 11 and we left to go to Dreamland probably about 1230! So no, I can't be classified as a CHEAP DRUNK... yet!!! HAAAAAAAAaaa! I'm just crazy cos I didn't think that I had to drive home... that's what desperation to GET OUT does to ya! So my early night ended up not so early getting home and sleeping at 4ish am!!! -_- Yah so tired man!!! But I'm up and ready to study (no hang over, woohoo!) and just waiting for my boy to wake up and call me... so I can be his maid and clean out his room... :p thanks babe, you better be my slave in return later *wink*
No lah, I'm freaking studying my ASS off... studying the Korean Language or Han gul as I just learnt a few days ago! This Korean Winter Intensive course is a tough cookie might I add. Let's see, I have to go to class everyday Monday to Friday from 9am to 3pm, then we learn a unit a day, then I have to do sets of homework (pages and pages worth) every night, and we have tests every 2 days on 2 units per test!! PHWOAR... I'm out of breath explaining it to you guys.. okay more like my right hand has developed some severe arthritis where I've got my hand permanently in the 'pen-holding' position!! How super sad!! I look really retarded now! :p
Talking about looks an aunty at work told me that my hair looked like grass. Can you believe how CRUSHED I felt for the rest of the night?! Hell yeah my ego was bruised! hahah jkz, but yeah since Korean started, I haven't been maintaining ANYTHING... I've got bushes and I think my mono-brow is growing back! ahuahuauhhauha Yes the hairiness is coming back... back in fashion I hope lah! Besides growth, the hair on my head has been utterly disgusting because of the bleach + perm = dead hair that I've got now... I was advised by Ivy to have a trim!! Yes, she is one of those trendy aunties, I mean she has even had ther hair chemically straightened!! How IN is that?! But thanks, Ivy for pointing out my grassy hair at work... I feel like my hair is really gross now and I can't wear a hat to cover it cos I SO don't suit hats and look really China woman cos most hats not only don't FIT my small head, but also don't SUIT my heart shaped face!! GRRR I hate my face!!
Keeping busy hasn't been that bad though.. At least I'm not sitting around waiting for phone calls etc anymore!! I'm freaking studying (which is definately out of character!) during semester break (ohmigosh right?! I know! Who would have thought I'd put myself thru all this??! And during my holidays too!! *sniff sniff*), so a GOLD STAR to ME!! hehe For all my hard work and efforts!! Aiyah, but I just saw a notification from oasis that I was granted a supp exam for bus stats!! :( Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! Let me just cry a little first. But I am also kinda relieved cos if I pass it second round then I won't have to repeat it next semester! Wooo Hooo, now all I need to do is learn everything again... since I didn't do shit all when I was supposed to... But are supp exams harder??? I've never done one before... feeling a bit scared now.. oh no I hope I don't have tummy upsets now... stress does that to me sometimes... hahah a secret no longer! ahuahuauahuauahauahua jkzz The supp is next Turdsday... haha... typos can be so farnieeeeeeeeeee... *hic* BurPPppppPppp* Thursday I mean... Ai yah I so hope I passed my trade and banking unit otherwise if I fail this supp exam I will have to overload and that's definately a NO NO cos I know I will do even more shit if I don't have time to relax... you know bum around and all! I wanna graduate with at least distinctions you know! So plz plz I gotta do well for this supp exam, and plz plz let me pass Trade and Banking!!! I can't afford to fail!!!!!
Anyways, I'm lazy to type now cos I think my arthritis is flaring up and not to mention I've got some back ache!! Feeling older than I am already!! Ai yah my birthday and I will be 23! Almost mid 20's... How sad!! I already left the 'teens' and now reaching mid twenties I already feel some pains and aches!! Gosh I think I really need to work out!! Or maybe just a good night's sleep will do the trick!! :p Luckily I've got Kathy to learn Korean with... Luckily cos she's a ball of sunshine everyday so always a pleasure to hang with her! Thanks sweetie! I know you kicked my ass in our test today so stop pretending you stuffed up!!!
Ciao all... Wish me luck for Korean and my supp okies!
